well, this is all over the place but you'll live

Okay, so let me introduce myself. I am a teenage girl that struggles with insecurity, fear of loneliness, family issues, and basically everything else imaginable. I never in the whole world thought that me, Blake, would ever want to write a blog. I mean, for crying out loud, I basically hate English and writing. but that's besides the point. So enough about me, I want to speak to you about boys. 

So my best friends, Mal and SA are both in relationships. Mal and her boy are going on over a year steady, and SA is freeking beautiful inside and out, with boys chasing her. But me, well I prefer joking about dating, like seriously I joke about it all the time but if I'm gonna be honest, I'm terrified. 

I have a fear of commitment, marrying the wrong person, staying with someone just to seem OK. But I'm also terrified to be alone. I know, two completely opposite ideas, but still, it's a constant battle in my head, to take a chance, or to just forget about him.

And I don't know if your like me, or if you like one of my best friends, but I have to say, there is some thing I must tell you about. Girls, as, well girls, it is not our place to seek out boys. We are called to wait patiently for a man to come and pursue us. Today, there are so many boys who have their mind on our bodies, and that is not all we are. and I say this because of a recent conversation with a guy friend. he has these girls who are like basically all over him, and he doesn't have to do anything, but he is basically dating someone. he's been going on for months about breaking things off with her, but doesn't because he doesn't want to hurt her feelings, but he likes this girl more than her and blah blah blah. I must tell you, that this breaks my heart so much to see this.

and I really must tell you that you are loved, I mean, God sent his one and only son to carry your sin to the cross to save you, to rescue you. and I just say all this to remind you to be careful how you act. that what you may think is "harmless" flirting is making a boy covet you and what you want. this is a reminder to sit back and wait for the perfect person to come and let me say, yall, I am young and I have time. and God's has a plan for you. he knows all.

Jeremiah 29:11For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.